Cousins and Church

Saw my cousin for the first time in a couple of years. It's funny how she and her partner haven't changed at all. He's got longer hair and everything, but they look pretty much the same.

They're doing well. They invited me and my girl to spend New Year's Eve with them, which is great. New Year's Eve has consistently been my least favorite holiday of the year, mainly because there always seems to be a lot of pressure and parties and stuff I'm not really that into, like getting piss-ass drunk. So, the idea of being with my cousin and her boyfriend's family friends seems like a good idea for me and my girl. I called her and asked her about it, and she said she was down for it. That's great; it's a big load off my mind, and I feel much more capable to focus on more important things.

I went to St John the Divine today, at 111th and Amsterdam. It's an amazing church, and it has my favorite artist's last painting there (Keith Haring). I love the piece, and it's great to just find these hidden treasures in New York. There are not too many cities like this one in the entire world!

We got a hint today to sell our computers just a few minutes ago. It seems sketch, and I'm worried about it. I don't want to give away my address or any of this stuff...it just seems a little dicey. Plus the email the guy sent me had a ton of typo's on it...I'm kind of worried it's just some spammer or some dude that kills people for their stuff. I don't know what to do.

Anyways, the good news is that I'm setting myself up for success. I feel like my cousin will give me a good opportunity to have fun at New Year's. I feel like I have a great life. I mean, look at what I do all day. Today I work on a paper in the morning, eat, then go to an amazing church, see amazing art, talk with my cousin, have a beer with my brother, talk with my girl, and come home to work on this paper. I finish, and tomorrow I will fly to go be with my family. I can't complain about too much. After suffering for so long, it's time I take a long hard look at things and realize that I've got them pretty good.

 I am fine just as I am. Lots of people love me. Lots of people care. I am a good person. My girlfriend is happy with me and I treat her well. My family loves me, and I love them. I am an amazing thinker, a smart person, and a fighter for justice. I am good. I respect myself for who I am and for who I'm trying to become. I am an amazing talented individual. I am fine just the way I am. No one is trying to change me. I love me. I respect me.