Wed.

My girl is here, sleeping. She got in last night. It's been great so far.

Sometimes it still astounds me how much she loves me, how much I love her, how much we deserve to be together. It's time to make the moves so that we can be a couple, a real couple.

She was telling me about her friends, about weddings and parties. I think a deeper reason why before I used to feel insecure about all of this was that I was unsure, or at least, so messed up in my mind, about whether she loved me or not, whether this was worth it, whether it would last. I was feeling insecure about the relationship, and thus I felt insecure about being with her friends, being in her world.

Now it is time to feel good, to feel better. To realize that my girl loves me, to realize that her friends also love me, and me for me!, not because I am anyone else. That is important. That is me. I am worth it. I am an amazing person.

This makes me feel much better about everything, about us, about her friends, about her. I know that she loves me. Not because she has never loved before, but because she loves me. For who I am. That's good. Reason to celebrate.

I decide. I am good.