Okay, so Robert Frost once said that the best way out is through. That's a great thing to say, especially with questions about relationships.
In most cases, I think the best thing to do is not to just give up and throw in the towel when a relationship gets tough. Mostly, I'm thinking of my case re: the long-distance relationship I have with my girl. I can't just give up--as tempting as it is--because it's really hard to be far away.
Being far away makes you question everything. Being far away from people and places of comfort also sometimes makes me feel insecure. Being exposed to new things makes me feel weird sometimes, too, especially if I don't like them.
The thing to do with all of this, though, is not to get so insecure as to throw away the relationship, or to cut off the ties. I need to take a look inside, reflect, and remain focused on my goals. I need to realize the beautiful life I have here in New York City! I need to realize the kids are really pretty amazing and their beef with authority is just that--one with authority, not with me. My goal is to show them that "authority" can be good, fun, and worth their time. otherwise, spending a whole life fighting it, well, that gets old fast.
I know I'm not the next saint. I'm 26, going on 27. I'm in a master's program at NYU. I live in NYC and am trying to get the most out of it. I am trying to live my dream and do me in the best way possible. I'm trying to stay true to what I want in life. I have to be in charge of that. I have to do me the best I can! It is sometimes lonely but I think I have done a lot. Too many people have told me not to change, to keep being me. I have to believe them and do it. I can do it.
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